Change And Letting Go

Change is inevitable. Change is hard. This past summer, I moved from sunny Florida over 1,118 miles away to tiny New Jersey. A big hard change to say the least. I learned a lot of things throughout this whole transition. I realized how much the people in my life meant to me, and how truly blessed and loved I was. Most of all, I learned how to trust God even when it's hard. The hardest part for me was realizing that everything was changing, and I needed to change with it. At first, I was scared, scared that everyone that meant so much to me in Florida would forget about me and I, would forget about them. One consistent thing would always come to me was "why." Why God are you putting me through this? why now? everything seemed perfect in Florida, I had friends, I had a team that was like family, we were involved at church. Everything seemed just right. One particular verse that kept coming to me during these "why" moments was, " In this world, you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." ( John 16:33) If God has overcome the world whom then shall I fear? what shall I fear? this verse was a great reminder that I am not in control God is, and he has a plan. All I can do, is trust in him and believe for something great. I can take whatever life throws at me because God is at the center of my life walking beside me through every storm. Like now in this moment this situation seems impossible and it seems like I won't make it through, but I will. " I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 3:16) I'm going to come out of this stronger and tougher because God wants me to go through this. Many people think I'm always happy which I am a lot of the time, but most definitely not all the time. For the first bit after my move, A part of me just did not want to be happy. I just didn't. But then one day I stopped myself and had a what the heck moment. WTH was I doing? What was I doing pouting and being sad? I needed to stop whatever I was doing, and start stepping out in faith. I needed to find the good in each day. Not the bad, because being sad and finding the sad in my life every day was not going to get me anywhere. Self-pity and pity from others was not magically going to make anything better. It wasn't doing anything. I needed to let go. At first, doing new things and meeting new people seemed like a small crime. Silly as it may sound, I felt like I needed permission from all the people i'd left. But I didn't. It was OK, everyone just wanted what was best for me, for me to be happy. I realize that now. It's been a gradual transition I still sometimes get sad, and I still have quite a lot to learn, but I've accepted the fact that things are different now, and I'm OK with that. I still have my friends I just won't be seeing them as often. I still have people who care about me they're just not as close. An illustration I like for this is that life is like a book, with God as the author and this was the end of one chapter and the beginning of a brand new one. As my boi Winnie, The Pooh says, " How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." So to everyone who was a part of that chapter in my life, Thank You. I'll never know why, but I needed each of you in my life for a reason. I'm forever thankful. I have so many wonderful memories and growing experiences in Florida that I will take with me for the rest of my life as well as, strong relationships (especially running buddyships if that's a thing LOL) that will last a lifetime. The moral of this, is that change and letting go is hard. Trusting God can be hard as well. But when you do so, surrender and take a step back, you will begin to see things differently. Peace will cover you, and bad things wont seem so bad. You'll be able to see your situation in a whole new light. In my case I realized this transition is just a big new adventure! Not, the end. Remember that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Ecclesiastes 3:1 says, There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens. God is like a loving parent he always has your best interests at heart. Put your trust in him. Have faith, let go and let God, and as I frequently say, "Go get em tiger."

Until next time, Mimi K.

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